God holds you when you hurt ..

God holds you when you hurt. I found that to be very true last night. I have an awesome older brother who I love and miss with all my heart, but I dont get to talk to him very much. I called him last night because I havent talked to him since I've been back to Masters. We had a normal conversation at the beginning. Just catching up, had a few laughs. Then he talks to me about whats going on in is life, and my heart started breaking. I'm not going to go into detail, just pray for him and his family. I hate that my big brother is going through a rough time, but there isnt anything that I can do about it but pray for him. He knows the Truth, but he isnt living it - and that alone is heartbreaking. Last night whenever I got off the phone with him I went into my room to go to sleep. Its late and Im trying to be quiet because Kelsey and Heather are trying to sleep but I cant help but just bawl. Heather and Kelsey being the awesome best friends that they are, prayed for me, hugged me and told me that it was going to be ok. I believed them and I know that God is bigger than any problem that anyone can have, but I felt like I needed something more at the moment. I got in my bed and cried those silent pillow tears once agan. I realized that Im not where I need to be spiritually and I to have things that I need to get right. So I layed there and cried and cried and prayed and prayed - and then all of a sudden, I felt this peace and it's almost like I could feel His arms wrapping around me and drawing me close and telling me that everything was going to be alright. I fell asleep peacefully and woke up the same way. I know that my God is a big God. I know that my God is a powerful God. Im trusting in him and Im giving everything to him. He will not hurt me, and He will not forsake me. It just brings this scripture to my head again ..

"For I know the plans I have for you, delcares the Lord. Plans to propser you and not to harm you. Plans to give you a hope and a future" - Jeremiah 29:11

God is good, I love Him.


-- This song is an amazing song --

You are my hope - skillet

Times are hard Times have changed Don't you say But I keep holding on to you It's hard to keep the faith alive day to day Leaning on the strength I've found in you You're the hope of all the Earth You are my hope You are my strength You're everything Everything I need You are my hope You are my life You are my hope You are my hope Far beyond what I can see or comprehend Etching your eternity in me Nations stream and angels sing, "Jesus reigns" And every knee bows down You're the hope of all the Earth You are my hope You are my strength You're everything Everything I need You are my hope You are my life You are my hope You are my hope Carry on and I sing of how You love and I love you now All the times that I start to sink You come and you rescue me You are my hope You are my hope